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"I never told my ambitions and efforts and failures to anyone. I listened unmoved to the sneers and ridicule of various relatives who thought my scribbling rank folly and waste of time. That never disturbed me at all. Down, deep down, under all discouragement and rebuff I knew I would arrive someday." - Lucy Maud Montgomery
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My brother gave me a bracelet a couple of weeks ago and I finally wore it today. No idea why it took me so long. I usually wear things right away. I say usually because he gives me things often. Not big things, but little things just because he saw them and thinks I'll like it. It could be a bracelet or a bookmark or a magazine, etc. He is older than me and has always been protective. In many ways he's taken the role of a father. And it took me a while to understand that someone can do something nice for you simply because.
I think a lot about dating and what I expect from someone and a lot has to do with the way my brother treats me and cares for me. So I know how much the little things count. And I always appreciate them when a guy takes the time to do something seemingly small for me. Not a lot of them do. It's not necessarily material, something simple like taking the time to talk or to make things right when they go wrong.
When it comes to things I like, smaller is better...
Don't be scared by Montezuma here. There was no Revenge. He was just showing me his dagger. He parties like craaaaaazy. You never know with these Aztec. Squeezing monkeys, leaving all kinds of macaw feathers all over the place and shit.
I still can't get over the fact that every time I upload a video, Youtube decides to make use of the ugliest frame as the video's thumbnail. I look like I'm angry, but the truth is I just frowned for half a second. I had three frames to choose from and, trust me, this was the best one.
Anyway, this was recorded on May 9th. As you can see, it was not a great night. My mother was sick with a kidney stone that wouldn't pass, along with other maladies. Just one of those nights were I sit in my room and ponder about life, the universe and the amount of Hot Pockets I have left in the freezer, while I play nurse, and pretend I'm fine.
I'm not used to recording myself. At least I haven't done so in many years. I do have dozens of audio cassettes of 'radio shows' I did for myself when I was 9 or 10. I would improvise and play songs and those shows were actually damn good, now that I think about it. Those tapes are around the house somewhere. Someone teach me how to make them into files I can transfer to the computer!
But I digress.
It was not a good night that night. And the silence was seriously freaking me out. I'll be the first one to admit I avoid others. I don't chat, I don't skype and I can't keep up with the ever-changing digital world fads. I'm trying to join the 21st century. Trying, I say.